WOW

OK.....its been a while since I've posted. A few things have happened...Ive already said that Im expecting again. I am now 18 weeks along and it has bee the pregnancy from u know where...I have been nothing but sick..i lost 20 lbs so far..i now have a really bad sinus infection and a nasal polyp, whatever that is..that might even require surgery...I am scared to death of having another baby....I mean i wanted another one..i still do..but the closer i get and the more crazy things get here with the 3 I already have the more scared I get. I dont know how I am going to manage...especially now that we are in an apartment...yeah thats the other thing thats happened. We moved out of my parents house about a week ago now into a 3 br apartment. Its a pretty nice apartment...fairly good size...but the abby and natalie are now sharing a room and so far its been a little crazy. Kylie is in a room by herself for right now just because her sleep patterns are so screwed up. Once the new baby gets here it will stay in our room for awhile..after that i dont really know what we are going to do. I get stressed out over the fact that the girls are so loud in this place i feel like our neighbors on the top and bottom of us are gonna start complaing..but the more i tell the girls to be quiet the louder they get and the more stressed i get. I dont know if i should just let them be or what..i dont know....i have never lived in an apartment before..i want to say just let them be whatever just like we lived in a house somewhere but then..arg..i just done know...We also got a van...its used and serves its purpose and much bigger then my mothers car that i was driving. Only now the check engine light has come on and its making funny noises...we dont have the money to fix anything right now if something did break...we used our savings to buy the dang thing....hopefully its nothing..I feel like I am complaining alot...and i am....i am feeling down and in the dumps lately...probably from lack of sleep and being sick all the freaking time...and yes i know i have lots to be thankful for...like having our own place and car now and such....its just really hard to focus on the good things when it feels like everything in me or around me is crazy and sick. I dont want to go to work anymore really, i dont mind my job but everything is getting on my nerves and my patience is so thin already...I feel like i m gonna explode...maybe thats just the pregnancy talking but oh well...i feel like crud....so anyway...we find out in about 2 weeks what we will be having.. I really hope its a boy but the more i get my hopes up for that i know it will be another girl...not that i would mind having another girl but its just a change from the norm u know...something different than what i already have....so ..i guess thats it...I just talk to myself later...sorry for being so negative to anyone who actually reads this blog....bye

Surprised

Well its the day before Christmas and all thru my parents house my kids are excited and screeching about. They look at the presents under the tree and cant wait till the morning to see what they have received. Mommy and Daddy are excited too because this is the first year they know about Santa and really the most important thing...the story of Jesus' birth. LOL. So theres a little poem for ya...So I mentioned in my other blog posts that I have been really thinking about and wanting another baby. Well much to our shock and surprise we are expecting again. I am due in late july next year. It was def. not planned but very  much wanted. David took about a week to get over the shock of it. I think he is  still getting used to the idea of having 4 kids soon. I am too for that matter. 4 kids...WOW... We should be out of my parents house by may..that is the plan anyways. We should be out of debt and in our own car and rental house by then as long as we can stick to our guns and this budget. I am really looking forward to getting out on our own again. Thought it def. will not be easy as we are adding another family member.  Its been a pretty good last couple of months. All 3 girls have really enjoyed preschool. Natalie has really started talking since she started and she is so cute sometimes when she is trying to get out what she wants to say. Abby is doing pretty well in school. She is having some behavioral issues, such as listening to the teacher, following instructions and sitting still. We have her on the waiting list at behavioral pediatrics to get evaluated for these issues. Kylie is also making improvements in her learning and her behaviors. Her temper tantrums arent as frequent or as long when they happen. She will be going to get evaluated for speech, occupational, and physical therapy in the next couple of weeks to see if she will qualify for some extra help in the areas where she might be lagging behind. As for me I have been dealing with lots of morning sickness, more like all day sickness. I am hoping it goes away sooner then later. Its hard working at a preschool and having to run to the bathroom to vomit...ugh...nice...Davids work has picked up  over the last month and we feel really blessed that he has a job this year. So anyways, thats whats been up lately. Merry Christmas Everybody.

So

So its getting late..Im tired, but decided to write something in my blog since its been awhile. Im starting to wonder why I even have a blog, cause I dont think anyone even reads it. I guess that shouldnt matter right. Blogs are for our own purposes right? Oh well. We are living at my parents house now. Been here for about a month. Its not too bad. A little stressful at times and well the occasional biting of my tongue when my parents put there two cents in about my kids or how I am raising them.  Just a little comment here and there. Nothing too terrible yet. LOL. Anyway. So I got a job. At the girls preschool starting this fall. Well in a couple days actually. I was supposed to be a teachers aid for the 2yr old class but now it turns out I will be the actual teacher because the director could not find another one in time. I dont want to do it but it seems I am now put in a position where I cant say no. Its the preschool at our church. If it wasnt at our church, well then I might have just quit but its a little bit harder when u know the people who hire you and who u work with and go to church with. We shall see how it goes. I know I can do it, I just dont want that responsibility right now.  The girls are excited about starting school. Abby and Kylie at least. Natalie has no idea what is gonna happen. She will be in the other 2 yr old class. The twins are in the 3k class this year. Next year 4k. Its going by so fast. I am hoping that we will find out more about Kylie's abilities while she is in school. She has made some improvements in speech and development but is still not where she should be so I am hoping school will help in these areas. She is going to be retested for Asbergers soon among other things again just so we can make sure she is getting all the help she needs. She is such a sweet heart and so darn cute. She gave me a hug today while we were at the doctor and said she loved me. That was awesome. Its why I love being a mom. Abby is still crazy and outgoing as ever and man she has the attitude of a teenager too. She is such a handful. Its amazing to me because from the very moment she was born everyone said she would be this way and she has turned out to be. Crazy. FUN. Intelligant as all get out. Too smart for her own good. She tests me every day but also makes me laugh every day too. She loves making people laugh. Natalie just turned two. She is a doll baby. So cute. Though her personality is def. coming out. She is spunky and can be down right mean to her sisters at times. Of course they can be mean to her too. But with her being the baby, she does get away with more. I can attest to this since I am the youngest of 3 sisters too. LOL. Love it.  So I have been mentioning in my other blogs about wanting another one. I still do, most of the time. lol. But I dont think thats what God has planned for us right now. Its been awhile now, 7 months and still not pregnant so I guess its time to face the fact that that might not happen. But its ok. Im good with it. I love my kids. So I could go on and on and on. But i need to get some sleep. Kids will be up early. They have been waking up early ever since we moved in here. My parents havent learned to be quite in the mornings. ARRRG. Anyway to bed I go. NIght

Here we go again

Well, I havent been doing a great job of keeping up my blog but i am new to this sort of thing. Not too much has changed since the last time. Though a few things are going to be changing soon. We will be moving again, sometime in August. The house we rent is being put up for sale so we are getting out. We dont want to have to deal with showing the house thats not ours to begin with. We will be moving in with my parents. Yes my parents. Unfortunately we dont have much choice. We cant afford a higher rent right now and we really need to save some money and the only way is to do this. David and i were proud of the fact we were the only one of my sisters that hadnt had to live with my parents and now here we are having too. Oh well, u gotta do what u gotta do for ur family. As far as my last blog about wanting more kids, I dont know anymore. I wouldnt mind having one more but I am completely satisfied with my 3 girls now. If in a year we have one more then yay, if not then thats okay too and we will be officially done. With the home situation we are going to any way we really wouldnt have room for another one anyway. Financially either so i guess its a good thing. I am a little sad thinking about it but again am so happy with my girls. They make me so happy and proud. Frustrating at times, yes but I love them so much. So maybe once we get some money saved and have a house of our own things might change again but as of right now I am happy where I am at with my family of five. Just like mom and dad did. I hate the fact we have to move again though. Its hard enough moving but to have to do it twice in 8 months kinda stinks. Oh well. Keep our family in your prayers as we are going through these changes as it is not easy on the girls or mommy or daddy. There is a lot of stress and emotions are running high and low for that matter. God has a plan for our family. Even though I dont see the point of it most of the time or why he is doing what he is doing I know that if we trust God he will get us through. Stay positive, stay in HIS word...which i struggle with daily...its something I def. need work and prayer to be closer to God and to know his will for my life. I think I am babbling now so I guess i need to stop. Anyway, I guess i will go and see what there is to be done before bed. Bye for now.

Finally!

So I know its been awhile since i've written anything but its been hectic around here. Abby is Finally potty trained. It took a very long time but she has been accident free for 2 weeks now and that includes at night too. She wears panties at night...no pullups...she insisted on wearing big girl panties..so we let her and she has not wet her bed one time yet. YAY! So happy. Kylie is still struggling. She doesnt want to wear big girl panties. She gets upset when we take her diaper off. So we shall see  how it goes. Natalie might be potty trained before her...maybe..lol. Kylie has had 2 good weeks of not being sick so far. She is on daily antibiotics for her Urinary tract infections and she is on a new med for her siezures. She is still getting constipated though and we have to give her an enema twice a week to help her. As far as david and I go we both have to get our wisdom teeth removed. David is having 3 of his teeth pulled this friday and my 2 will be pulled in about 2 weeks or so. All of this with no insurance mind u and no credit to use either. All I can say is thank the lord for my parents..we are borrowing from them. We hate to do it but davids teeth were infected and impacted and causing alot of pain and so were mine. We really dont have a choice.  Anyway...we are both trying to have a better outlook on our lives. We are trying to be more positive in light of all that seems to be going wrong in our lives...its not easy but we are taking it step by step and with Gods help we will make it thru. On another note...My baby Natalie is gonna be turning 2 in august and I cant believe it. She is growing so fast. Its kinda weird for me cause the twins hadnt turned 2 yet when I got pregnant with Natalie so me not being pregnant now is strange...I guess cause its just something I was used too....I really would love another one...People look at me and tell me I am crazy for wanting more with all that is going on in my life now. I cant help it. I just feel that the Lord has another child in store for us. If its not God who instills this feeling of mothering and wanting of children than what else could it be?? If its just me than God will decide whether or not I get pregnant again anyway right?  So David and I are discussing the possibility of another one...we know we want one more..its just when will it be right to do so...is there a right time..yes and no...The way I am I say now..right now..I wish I was pregnant 9 months ago...thats just me being really impatient though. My life can be crazy at times and trying and stressful but my kids are my life to me. I think God made me to be a mother and nothing else. I have always felt this way. With every job that I had before there was something always missing. I wasnt happy with were I was at. I AM happy with being a mom. Do i get discouraged? Yes. Am I the perfect mom? NO....I make mistakes...but I love this Job. I love it. And I dont thank God enough for it. Because I am so blessed to be a mother. There was a time in my life when I didnt think it was going to be possible. We tried for 4 years to get pregnant...it was so hard....but then God blessed us with the twins....and then to our surprise 20 months later...another one with Nat...I dont believe I am done yet...I dont feel complete yet..I dont know if thats the way to word it or not because if for some reason we dont get pregnant again and God does not want this for us..than okay...I will be dissapointed but not unhappy...My family will be my family of 5. Then it will be complete. We wont know until we try right?? lol. Anyway thats enough blabbering on my part. I will try and post some pics of the new house soon.

Potty Training

I never new potty training would be so difficult, especially having to train to at once. I have been trying for at least 1 year now off and on. Its been really in the last 2 weeks we have been working on it full time. I am so sick of poop and pee everywhere. The girls have gotten better at peeing on the potty and telling me when they have to go for the most part but poop is a different matter. They wait until they have done the deed and then proceed to tell me they have pooped in there panties. YUCK! I hate rinsing out poop panties. I usually just throw them away, its so gross. We got pull ups yesterday cause i was throwing away all there panties.They are expensive
though and abby keeps pooping in them. Just today abby comes down stairs and says she pooped. Okay, i change her. 10 min. later she comes down naked. I ask where her panties are she says she pooped in them. I go to swat her on the bottom, which appeared clean of no poop, because i told her if she pooped again she gets a little spanking. Well lets just say, the poop was still on her but when i spanked her and mommy got it all over her hand. YUCK again. So yes, potty training literally stinks in every way. I hope this doesnt take much longer cause it is driving me crazy. So this is how my days are filled lately, with poop and more poop and occasionally a puddle of pee on the floor. Yep. Got to love it. NOT.
Anyway. Please pray for potty training to be over soon.
thanks

Officially Moved

Well we are officially moved now. We had to stay at my parents house for a week before our new house was ready for us to move in. There was lots to be done. Cleaning and moving out the former owners belongings into the garage so they could pick them up. The house is older and drafty but it is home. I have trouble calling it home cause it doesnt feel that way yet. Its just a house to me right now. Its getting closer to being home but until pictures are hung and some more time spent here maybe I can begin to call it home. The girls seem to be taking the change okay. Kylie is having a bit of a hard time with it. She does not like change. She likes her routines and she is set in her ways. She keeps telling me everyday she wants to go home. I tell her that we are home now and sometimes it makes her cry. I feel bad for her, I know it is hard being taken away from something familiar and thrown into something completely different. I blame myself sometimes. We lost the house we called home because of circumstances that were out of our hands but I still feel at fault. The what ifs and what could have we done different to prevent it nags at me alot.  Abby is taking it very well. She seems to like it here. Even at the old house she kept saying she wanted to go to the new house. So she is doing pretty good with it. Her and kylie are sharing a room now, which is a change for them since they used to have their own rooms. It seems to be working out okay so far. Natalie is too young to notice to much I think. She knows we are somewhere different but it doesnt seem to bother her. She is still getting over the stomach bug from last weekend. She got very sick with vomiting and diarrhea that she had a hard time getting over. She had it for a week and she still has the diarrhea. She lost almost 2 pounds in a week and we even had a visit to the ER to make sure she wasnt dehydrated. She was not, thank the Lord. She is still not herself yet but each day she seems to be getting better. She has a bad cough now though so I am praying it doesnt turn into anything worse. This is the first week of David going back to work as we stay home here at the house. I am trying to get back into the routine and swing of things again. Its different and I am a little homesick also. I am kinda stuck into wondering what to do next and what is going to happen next.